I just sit here wondering...

by bglide on Oct 5, 2008 1:04 AM CDT

does anyone else feel like I do? Not sad, mad, angry, happy..not anything. I just watched the game as I always do. Quietly with my dog in my apartment, observing....and then it's over. I don't know what I feel. Honestly, I love and hate the fact that a baseball team can grab my emotions in a way that is scary to me. But right now, those emotions aren't there to grasp.

I blame no single person. When you watch the rays, they play as a team. They do all the little things that we did all year (most of the year). It is so obvious to me how we didn't play as a team. I cheered for nine individuals tonight. When one failed, i moved my focus to the next. That is tell-tale right there. It was tough. I don't know what to feel. Does anyone have anything to hold on to? Please enlighten me...I am a bit confused.

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since about inning 2 of game 2 I have just felt resigned that they can't do it

I think the sadness will hit me later, but after I saw those errors I knew they just weren’t up to it.

by jeff_pico on Oct 5, 2008 1:06 AM CDT 0 recs

ditto

100 years would have been nice, but 101 years still has a nice ring to it.

by airweino on Oct 5, 2008 1:30 AM CDT up 0 recs

I wish I could feel nothing

But I feel many somethings, and they are not fun to feel.

by bms on Oct 5, 2008 1:07 AM CDT 0 recs

get some booze

that will numb you

by IllinoisCubs on Oct 5, 2008 1:10 AM CDT up 0 recs

I actually feel a lot better.....

…..now that I put away all my Cubs hats and shirts in a box for another accessoriesless winter of wearing anything with a Cub logo on it due to the embarassment that it brings. I am actually proud of myself for not burning it all. Damn, I wish I had the strength to that but I guess I’m OK with this abusive relationship.

Over time, your quickness with a cocky rejoinder must have gotten you many punches in the face - Al Swearengen

by lemon20pie on Oct 5, 2008 1:14 AM CDT 0 recs

The 5-game series...

is the world’s cruel form of a cock-block (sorry for the crudeness). It’s the girl’s friend at the club who, no matter how much fun the girl had all night, reminds her that she doesn’t in fact want to go home with you. You wasted a great night of drinking and now it’s bar closing and you’re just drunk enough to not be able to drive home. You pay the ridiculous cab fare and go home.

by bglide on Oct 5, 2008 1:18 AM CDT up 0 recs

That's actually not a good analogy...

…..It’s more like, going out with someone over a couple of years, who says she won’t consimate the relationship until marriage and your Ok with that because you realize that she’s your soul mate and you want to spend your entire life with her and then on the night of your wedding, she takes off her dress and takes off her underwear and down drops the largest penis you’ve ever seen in your life.

Over time, your quickness with a cocky rejoinder must have gotten you many punches in the face - Al Swearengen

by lemon20pie on Oct 5, 2008 1:23 AM CDT up 0 recs

And then, since you've realized how much you've already invested...

…..into this relationship, you drop trow and bend over.

That’s what it feels like, being a Cubs fan.

Over time, your quickness with a cocky rejoinder must have gotten you many punches in the face - Al Swearengen

by lemon20pie on Oct 5, 2008 1:27 AM CDT up 0 recs

I feel nothing

I’m not sad, angry, or bitter. I’m nothing right now. I guess I still can’t believe it’s over. I’ll still wear my Cubs cap tomorrow, and I’m sure I’ll get my wife out to see her first game next year. But for now, I’m just tired.

by mkacer on Oct 5, 2008 1:15 AM CDT 0 recs

its been tried

i tried, the booze doesnt help. while watching the game i tried to drown my sorrows so maybe i wont remember until the morning of what has happened. all i could still think about was how i watching the cubs everyday for months and then to just see it end like this was astonishing. the saddest part was hanging up my jersey knowing i wont be able to wear it until that great day when we play again

by mattpsu on Oct 5, 2008 1:16 AM CDT 0 recs