Just over 40 days ago, on this site, from this chair, with this keyboard, I testified before God, Man and the Office of Independent Counsel my declaration of insolvency with you in this FanPost (please go and rec it now if you haven't already). I made accusations and indictments, including details about our private life, details no American citizen would ever want to know. Still, I must take complete responsibility for all my actions, both public and private. And that is why I am speaking to you now.
As you know, in the summer of 2008 Dan and I became friends...more than friends. We joined forces, kicked ass and took names. We put our money where our mouths were. We took turns shoving the others nose to the grindstone. We let it all hang out. We literally got down with our bad selves. In short, our love blossomed.
Then, rather recently I was asked questions about my relationship with Daniel T. Pollitt. While my answers were legally accurate, I did not volunteer information. Of course I was the one asking the questions to myself, so I sensed that I hadn't been completely forthcoming. I was suspicious of myself. Indeed, I did have a relationship with Daniel T. Pollitt that was, in a word, beautiful. In fact, it was more than that. It constituted such a deep and meaningful connection and resulted in such unexpected personal growth on my part, for which I can only pray he too can share in, that my very soul has been refined and made better for having known him.
But 6 short weeks ago I told BCB a lie, I attempted to hide or destroy evidence and tried to take other unlawful action. I know that my public comments and my silence about this matter gave a false impression. I misled people, including even my wife. I deeply regret that. I can only tell you I was motivated by many factors. First, by a desire to get alot of rec's for my FanPost (please go and rec it now if you haven't already), because that makes me feel important. I was also very concerned about the broken Slurpee machine at the 7-11 down the street from my house. I go there about 3 times a week to get a Coke/Pina-Colada Slurpee after dinner. That doesn't really have anything to do with why I decided to break up with you Dan, but I was worried about how long I was going to have to go without a Slurpee.
In addition, I had real and serious concerns about how terrible this baseball team is this year. It's had a genuinely negative effect on BCB as a whole, and well...I figured this could be something to get people talking. I didn't expect the reaction i got from some people. Sue had an independent investigation conducted to dig up "dirt" on me. This investigation moved from my staff and friends, then into my private life and now the investigation itself is under investigation by an new investigation which ballhawk is leading.
This has gone on too long, cost too much and hurt too many innocent people.
Now, this matter is between me, the two people I love most and all of you on BCB. I must put it right, and I am prepared to do whatever it takes to do so. Nothing is more important to me personally. But it is private, and I intend to reclaim what I set out to destroy. It's nobody's business but ours. It is time to stop the pursuit of personal destruction and the prying into private lives and get on with our BCB life.
Our online community has been distracted by this matter for too long, and I take my responsibility for my part in all of this. That is all I can do.
Now it is time -- in fact, it is past time to move on.
We have important work to do -- real opportunities to seize, real problems to solve, real contracts with NTCs to handout, real season tickets to cancel, and a pretend GM and manager to fire.
And so tonight, I ask you to turn away from the spectacle of the past 40 days, to repair the fabric of our SBNation, and to return our attention to all the challenges and all the promise of the next Cub's Game.
Thank you for reading. And good night.
PS - Dan, hold me.